Closing thoughts and feelings for all that has happened this year

This year has been an absolute rollercoaste of emotions from atart to finish, it has been a great pleasure to be able to challenge myself and do what i have so far and learn so much about what it takes to be a game designer and the burden it takes to be a single person team, with outside help on some occassions, which has helped steer me forward and kept me on track to getting to the end of year, its been refreshing and has helped me to understand the amount of stress and pressure that gets put upon you to reach a crucial date and have something that works from concept to creation, with many a steps in between, this year has been nothing short of scary, terrifying, mind bendingly difficult, fun, but ultimately exhausting

Without any hesitation i will say this, i have enjoyed this year greatly and it has helped me to understand a lot of the fundamental parts of what it means to be in this field, the ampunt of passion and drive you need to have to be able to pull off something like this and the self-preserverence to not give up and burn out mid way, especially with as many obstacles as there were throughout this year and how difficult and exhausting, physically and mentally all of the problems that have happened so far have just been made greater by the worlds problems and how it has effected everyone, including myself in this pandemonium and fear mongering and being away from physical contact and not being able to communicate with others as effectively as being in a work space

Its been very difficult, but all in all i would have made more definite and concrete decisions to make schedules for what i should be doing to get the most out of every effective work day, because as of the last few weeks, i have had days where i have done the bare minimum of work because of not being in a workplace enviromenr and not being able to be as effective as i could have been within said space and used my time accordingly and much more effectively.

In truth, its a lot of should of, would of, could have, wishful thinking and hoping i can do better for the next time around, i have done considerably well and have been relatively proactive about dealing with work, but would not be able to do or could have done as much work if i didn’t have my delightful assisstant and helper for this year, Laura who has helped me be more efficient with how i work by talking over what we have done and what we plan to do for the next few days on a bi weekly call that we would both partake in and attempt to help one another with things

This has worked well and has really allowed me to bounce off ideas and allow a creative flow of events to work out, and allow me to create as much as i have done in the allotted time, but overall i am happy with what i have done, though wish i was better with time management and could be more focused on tasks.